The initial response of most women in your situation is to either doubt their partner's love/faithfulness or to think that they are not good enough and develop insecurities.

The fact that he was looking at porn while you were pregnant probably made you feel as though you were not as attractive as the women that he looks at online. It’s natural for you to be curious about the women, but :::do not::: obsess over him. Don’t pick yourself apart comparing yourself to them - the pictures are usually airbrushed to hide any imperfections or flaws the women might have. Very little about those pictures are real. Make an effort to be strong but do not concern yourself with the unnecessary painful thoughts that will in no way make you feel better or get your relationship back on track.

You clearly have a very poor self-image at the moment and it is important that you do something to improve this. It's not up to others to make you feel good about yourself. It's up to you. You are a wonderful, thoughtful, caring and loving person who deserves to be loved and appreciated. Improve your relationship with yourself. Make yourself a promise that you’re going to take good care of yourself and be okay no matter what happens in your relationship. People with poor self-esteem often fail to give themselves enough time and space. Do something for you. Go treat yourself to something you enjoy, whether it is your favorite restaurant, shopping, going to the movies, a walk in the park, a long bubble bath or anything else you prefer, just make sure it's something that you enjoy. During this time, allow yourself to feel peaceful and happy. I know it isn't possible for you to take an entire day to yourself, but take a moment, no matter how small and do something for yourself.

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There are many different levels of involvement with porn. It is normal for your boyfriend to be curious about porn and want to look at it. Internet porn is so readily available that the vast majority of men view it at one point or another simply because it is there. This is not about you. This has nothing to do with your body, your physical beauty or your boyfriend's love for you. This is simply about him. If you are having less sex than you used to or he has formed an addiction to viewing porn then this has become a problem and is no longer normal.

It is important to remember to not give this more power over your life than it deserves. When couples don't see eye to eye, they need to discuss the situation and reach a compromise. Discuss with your boyfriend how his behavior makes you feel. You are entitled to your emotions; it is normal to feel hurt, insecure or even angry, so let your boyfriend know that.

You also need to discuss what is acceptable in your relationship and what is not. Talking to other women while he is in a relationship with you is not acceptable. Most people go outside of their relationship when they feel that specific needs are not being met. Having a baby greatly affects a relationship as it is no longer just the two of you. Perhaps he is having problems adjusting to that. Your boyfriend needs to examine the personal reasons that has caused him to talk to other women and what needs to change to avoid the temptation. Communication without judgement is very important so be sure and listen with undivided attention and understanding, then work together to find suitable solutions on how to prevent the same event in the future. The focus is to find and establish the reasons for his actions and ways you can move on with your lives together.

:::I hope this has given you some helpful insight:::